Étiquette : Gillovny

it’s too fucking hard.

duchov:

It’s so
fucking hard to love you.

You’re
hardly even here. I can’t wake up next to you, kiss you good morning, wake you
up by making you come. There are times when I want to tell you something that
isn’t very important, like that I had the most amazing kale smoothie or
discovered a new organic coffee place in New York. I can’t buy you a bunch of
roses or bar of dark chocolate just because I love you. I only can call you in
the evening and tell you how much I miss you. If I’m desperate, I’ll even buy a
ticket to London. But it’s so hard loving you when you’re not around.

But when
you are around, it’s not easy, either. I have to share you with the whole
world. You’re always somewhere while I want you all to myself. When we’re
together, you have the book signing, I have the interview. We’re missing each
other and then yet again, the evenings are ours to say how we feel, what we did
and how much we miss each other. I fucking hate this situation. I want to
scream from the rooftops, I want the whole world to know that I love you and I
don’t want to share you that much. You’re mine and everyone should know it.

I hate
everything about you.

I hate the
fact you wake up every day on your own. You’re so cold in the mornings and
there’s no one there to hold you close, to warm you up.

I hate how
your eyes are tired from reading all those scripts and working with the
computer. You have tears in your eyes, they are red and puffy. It hurts you.

I hate when
you’re taking lonely walks in the park late in the evening. I’m always worried
about you and though I’m so far away, I could jump in the plane and fly to you
only to make sure you’re safe.

I hate when
you have to attend all those events and parties where you are asked
uncomfortable questions about your private life, about me, instead of your
amazing work. It’s unfair.

I hate many
things about you. But I love you to death.

I love how
your nose wrinkles when someone says something funny. How you laugh out loud.
How your eyes smile when you look at me.

I love the
way you say my name.

I love the
fact that you count the days until we see each other again. How every day you
send me a short text saying how many days are left.  Today it’s 13.

I love how
you sing my songs in the shower and when you say that you’re proud of my work,
although I know that honestly you’re not a fan of it.

“I’m your
biggest fan”, you tell me.

I love
every little thing about you and the fact that I can’t have you every second of
every minute and every day of forever drives me crazy.

But you
know what?

One day I
will be spending every second of every minute, every minute of every hour,
every hour of every day, every day of every week, every week of every month,
every month of every year and every year of eternity by your side. Now I have
to miss you. I have to hate all those things. It has to be hard loving you, but
don’t worry.

You’re
worth it.

I have never seen anyone as empathetic as David was when Gillian had to say something about Neurofibromatosis and her brother at the Chicago Comic Con, and I have never seen him like this before. He was SO with her in that moment. Nodding and listening to something he’d heard a lot of times, and knew what talking about it would and could do to her sometimes. And the way he kept looking at her, as if to make sure she was still okay… God, that really, really gives me the feels.

Me too, anon. I hate the moderator for going there and putting her on the spot. She was completely taken aback and wasn’t prepared to talk about that during an XF panel, but you could see David was silently feeling for her and supporting her.

It’s been a pleasant few days because we haven’t seen PM’s face anywhere. Other than that crappy article in Tatler, nothing has been reported, I think. Having said that, I now expect a new wave of shit tsunami to flood us. I had a question for you. Why do you think GA went out of her way to be with DD last year but not this? Her concert appearance had nothing to do with the X-Files. Nor did her wishing him happy Valentine’s day last year. So why no wish this year? What changed?

I think her social media use changed, and not only with David, but in general. It could be for many reasons, the one that makes more sense to me is because she’s OBE now. She is since last summer, in August, and it pretty much fits with the time we noticed a shift in the way she uses her social media. We wen’t from Schmoopie to the most serious and charity centered Instagram account. A decision was clearly made at this time to cool it down with the goofy and dirty jokes, including the one with David, and keep it professional. 

And about his concert, maybe she was at the LA one, who knows! But as much as I’d love and I wish to see it again, The Cutting Room was a unicorn, it was magical and unique. It can’t be redone. 

What do you think about this rumour that Gillian does not want to do more XF unless they pay her more than David? And that their relationship went sour because of that?? I just heard of it. I cannot believe they would break up because of money. Although I could see her wanting to be paid more than him, as a statement of sorts. I don’t know what to believe anymore!

First of all, I don’t think they’ve broken up. Then, I haven’t heard this rumor, but even if she asked for more money, I don’t think it could be a deal breaker for them. She said many times money wasn’t the reason why they didn’t get along in the 90′s so a salary gap isn’t going to settle between them now. Actually, I don’t even think David would mind at this point. And finally, I don’t think it’s true. Gillian said that when it comes to The X-Files, she lets David’s team negotiate first and then she asks for the same.

I love the idea of her claiming her money back from all those years she was paid half his salary, but I honestly don’t believe the money is the issue in the negotiations now. It’s more likely the number of episodes, in my opinion. 

gillian feels his hot breath on her neck, his fingers lightly touching her hips. his 5 o’clock shade tickles the space behind her ear where he places soft kisses. his spot. he pulls her closer to his body and she moans quietly. « hello, my queen » he whispers and kisses her earlobe and she closes her eyes with pleasure. « i’ve been waiting so long for you ». she slowly turns around and smiles at him. she’s amazed by how handsome he is now. and beautiful. she kisses him on his lips and he smiles. 1/2

“i’m here” she says seriously and she means her silent promise. she looks deeply into his eyes and promises him to never let go. he bows down and she frowns. “what are you doing, duchovny?” “i’m bowing down before my queen” he answers simply and she laughs. “get up” she says. he does as she tells him to and they kiss for some time. until he feels her dropping to her knees. “it’s time for me to bow down before my king” she says with the sexy voice while unbuckling his belt and he is in heaven.

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Ouch! Exactly what I needed! Thank you!

In case we need an anthem 1/2: Overwhelmed but I won’t break. Through the battle I will say. Your grace will be enough. Under fire but we won’t fall. We will never be alone. You’ll always be enough. Now in Gillovny we trust. In their name we hope. I know, Gillovny will not be shaken. Gillovny is here with us. They already won. I know, Gillovny will not be shaken. We will follow where You go. We will trust through the unknown. I know You go before.

Anthem 2/2: Lead my heart now in Your ways. For we’re carrying Your name. Your promise never fails. You’ll finish what You’ve begun. Forever strong in Your love. Your name is sure. And You will fight for us. Our hope forever secure. In You alone ~the end~ 

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Anthem adopted. Thank you very much!

Was it Paley or NYCC where David reacted like a jealous boyfriend at the mere mention of 8-pack? At first, It thought David was channeling Jealous Mulder. However, given Gillian’s subsequent, « Oh come on…. » accompanied by an expression of amused exasperation (best way I could describe it), there definitely seemed to be some romantic stuff simmering below the surface. Thoughts?

It was Paley! And he was jealous! I feel like he was first pretending to be jealous for Mulder, but she clearly wasn’t talking about that and he switched when she reminded him that her one night stand was Rodney. And because she likes to torture him, she had to remind him he was nicknamed 8-pack. 

Definitely one of my favorite Gillovny moment!