he looks at you and smiles. he wants to give you some support, you know he does but you can’t cool down. it starts. you stand there and you breathe in and breathe out and you whisper something to yourself, you try to keep your mind occupied with anything else. anything else, please. you hear “david” a few times. it drives you back to the times when you were together, shooting scenes, coming back to the hotel after the most exhausting day, laying in bed together, barely talking but appreciating each other so much. each “david” brings tears to your eyes and brings you back to the times when you were smiling with honesty. where did you go wrong, why are you standing here trying to stay calm when you’re anything but? each “david” makes you wanna answer “i love you”. each “david” makes you wanna grab your phone and make a call. each “david” makes you wanna jump in a car and run away. escape the reality, run straight into his waiting arms. but this “david” makes you shiver. you’ve got goosebumps all over your body because this “david” isn’t the mention of a person. this “david” comes up to the stage. i can see you catching a breath. i can see the tears in your eyes and hear your inner voice telling you to run. run as fast as you can. but you stand still.
“i first met gillian 25 years ago” i start and look at you with, at least i hope so, the most adorable smile i can. “it was a total coincidence. i never planned for it to happen but somehow i sat next to her and we started running lines. that was the first time i’ve realized what a great actress she is. she was so young and so pure and a moment when we were saying goodbye to each other on that day, wishing each other good luck, that’s when i realized she’s the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen. we got the parts and although it’s been exhausting and it seemed like an endless journey, i would do it all over again.”i look at you again and you smile through your tears. and i realize i’m crying too. to hell with that. “it’s been 25 years and a lot of things have changed but i would go back to that one day when i fell in love with her for the first time. it was amazing, that was the happiest day of my life. i keep falling in love with her with every day and believe me – it’s the greatest feeling. ”this “david” makes you cry and fall in love even more. so what if you saw me standing there?what would you do?
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@megsandroses I love you. And I hate you. But mostly, I love you! ❤
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