i’ve decided to make this post maybe to clear my head a little, to take a break from studying and to reach out to you guys. when i first saw the pics of gillian and peter morgan during harper’s bazaar event i have to admit – i was heart broken. i didn’t know what that means and i was expecting the worst. but then everything calmed down a little. then golden globes happened and i became nervous again but only for a moment. the photos and her sitting him, obviously being his “date” didn’t bother me that much. i took a break because i didn’t want to be involved in that mess, i had further more important and serious issues to deal with but after my come back i’ve noticed that nothing has changed really. there was still no proof of gillian dating peter morgan. only so much hate was happening. it actually makes me sad that once we all were a big happy family that supported each other, were there for each other and stood by each other’s side every step of the way and now we’re parted. there are two sides. actually, there are more sides and i don’t know where i fit in anymore.
a lot of happened in my real life. i almost lost a job, i failed my most important exam, my grandma was admitted to the hospital, a friend of mine died a couple of weeks ago, there were nasty rumors about me, i had health problems. that’s a lot for a 20 year old and a few weeks back i was sure i could just come back here and everything would be okay. but coming back to the hell where people are attacking each other, my friends receiving hate made me even more anxious and worried. staying here is now harder than ever.
now the mess is happening again. i was actually ready to see gillian attending peter morgan’s dinner. i think they have a professional relationship and that’s why she’s there. i may be proven wrong and of course, i’ll accept it eventually but it hurts. a little.
i really wish for those who believe gillian is dating peter morgan to show a little respect and sympathy, i think it’s not a lot to ask for. and for those who believe in gillovny, please stay strong and hold on. gillovny is far bigger than some photos. it’s 25 years of something incredible and fucking beautiful.
a lot of happened since my break. a lot of happened since i came back. and whatever happens after tonight, i’m just happy and excited that i’ll meet such great people like @justholdinghandsok, @becksndot5 and @sembell. it’s an honor to meet them in person, actually. because they are the perfect example of friends. that even if i don’t know where i fit in anymore, i can still count on them.
have a good night!
(and please, keeps fingers crossed for me on thursday. because either i pass my exam or i fail the whole uni)
I love you @duchov . Your soul is pure and your heart is big. You’re the best. Hand in there, we’re all in this together! ❤
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