Dear Anon! Thank you so much for this message. It’a been a while since I had nice things in my inbox, so I do really appreciate it!!! I’m glad you still enjoy my blog! Lots of love right back at ya! ❤️️
And I have no clue what is happening in this fandom or how we got this far and I am so very sorry for it. This place used to be magical, funny and happy. Now it is terrible. Skulls leaving made me very upset and sad, just like what happened to JHH. They are indeed my girls ❤️️ so let me tell you something extremely positive about being in a fandom. We have so much shit going around, let me try to balance it a little bit. Maybe I can give back the hope to some of you, to still believe in the fandom.
Last year at this time, I was fighting with depression, I hated my job, my life and I was struggling with coming out. I lost all belief in myself, and I genuinely lost track of who I am, what is life supposed to about… It was the most horrible time of my life. Then I went to Vancouver with my fandom friends. I went to Vancouver because of this little show called The X-files, and I went to Vancouver with some people who I’ve never met before and we spent two weeks together! I was nervous as fuck. I hated myself so I couldn’t imagine how these other people who never met me before, could like me?! And in that two weeks, my whole life changed. Those people accepted me for who I am, treated me with respect and we allowed each other to just be ourselves. It turned out that The X-files is by far the only thing that we have in common… IT WAS THE BEST TWO WEEKS OF MY LIFE. I’ve found best friends for life. I’ve found the most amazing bunch of humans. I’ve found a lot of alcohol, road tripping, filming visits, X-files history stories, amazing individuals and guess what else…I’ve found myself. I came back as a different person. I was free, I was someone who was not ashamed anymore of who they are.
Nearly one year later, I already quit my job, I’m moving to the UK, I’ve come out to many of my friends and some of my family members ( not out completely, yet but you know…baby steps) I’ve fixed all my shit and now I’m living a different and much better life. All started because of these beautiful people in Vancouver!
So yeah, don’t you worry, Anon! I’ll take care of my girls always and forever because without them, I might not be here, or even if I were, it would be a so much shittier life… They are the best, and I’m lucky to have met them and still have them in my life. This fandom can be amazing, it is full of unique humans, you just have to go and find each other to create your own stories! I urge each of you to do so because you’ll never know what a silly little show can give you if you don’t try. Don’t get scared, love is always stronger than hate!
*Ps: You bunch of crazies, I love you so much and I f*cking miss you. Sorry for this slightly embarrassing post😂 ❤️️*
“I love the people that I’ve worked with; I love Gillian and Chris and I want them to be doing what they want to do,”
“There’s no way I want Gillian to be doing the show if she doesn’t want to be doing it, and yet, I want people to do work that they’re really good at, so we’ll see what happens.”
“To me, the unfortunate thing about Gillian saying that she was done is that there’s kind of a mourning sense about the whole season, when in fact, what I’d love is that people really recognise that these are 10 excellent episodes — like, way better than the six we did a few years ago.”
I miss sharing the updates! I meant to upload the Snapchat story on here so everyone could see it, so thank you for reminding me that I need to get on that. Also, we all want to go back… and some of us will actually be moving there next year… so, I can revive the Snapchat then 😉 As for your questions:
I’d argue that we actually function better while drinking.
Oh wow! Thank you so much for this, anon. You’re making my day with it. Although, we all know I’m a fraud and the Gillovny king is actually @theorlandojones. But thank you so much anyway! 😘
So…I met a lot of bitches on this trip to Vancouver: drunk bitches, sleepy bitches, criminal bitches, horny bitches, hilarious bitches, sweet bitches, snoring bitches and so many more. But all of them were beautiful. And I’ve created so many amazing memories over these past 10 days. I’ll never forget a single one of them and I can’t wait to see them again. I’m going to miss you girls so much and thank you for making this such a great experience ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m feeling an overwhelming urge to paint right now, probably my own kind of therapy 😉
I’m happy to let you know that I’m ready to give commissioned art a try and would be happy to discuss any watercolor project you would like me to paint for you.
It can be fandom related or not, whatever suits your idea. The only thing to know is I don’t do portraits because I suck at it 🙈
Just to give you an idea about what commission I’m working on right now, is I’m doing a green/grey version of this 😊
But I can also paint galaxies, moons, and do pretty lettering
Let me know if you guys are interested 😊
@a-january-girl did paintings about TWO of my fics, and they’re the absolute best! Hit her up- she’s fabulous!
Awwww thanks anon! I’m glad you like @justholdinghandsok’s tattoo! I love it too and feel so immensely proud that she now has my handwriting on her skin for the rest of her life. I mean, that’s such a big deal I still don’t realize that it’s really there, like, for real… 😳
And you know what? I’m not gonna debate Gillovny right now (not ever, really, because that’s too tiring and stirs up unnecessary drama, imo), but that tattoo simply just means the world to me. Not because it’s Gillovny, but because it’s on my friend. That’s it.
I could believe in Gillovny or think this is all bullshit, it doesn’t matter. I would have done it anyway because J asked me for it. And that’s the kind of friend I am and wanna be 😉
It’s real and you’re a rare gem @a-january-girl ❤️.
This tattoo symbolizes more than Gillovny to me. It’s also a sign that I’m part of this community now, and that it’s an important part of my life. I wanted it to be a unique fandom thing, so I asked a friend who is part of this fandom to do it for me, went to the tattoo shop with my fandom friends, and now I’m forever linked to this fandom and to @a-january-girl, no matter what happens Gillovny wise. How awesome is that?
Hey anon! I’m so happy for you that you get to meet David! He’s the sweetest, and if you ever feel bad, he’ll make that feeling go away in a heartbeat! I’m sure of that! Please come back and share your experience!
Hang in there, we love you! 💕
Just Holding Hands 