What the heck is happening to this fandom?!?! I hope you take good care of your girls! I see JHH posting less and less and skulls leaving this is a mess… I’m so happy I still got you for news so I’m in the loop a little bit at least! Lots of love ❤️

sunshinetoday:

Dear Anon! Thank you so much for this message. It’a been a while since I had nice things in my inbox, so I do really appreciate it!!! I’m glad you still enjoy my blog! Lots of love right back at ya!  ❤️️

And I have no clue what is happening in this fandom or how we got this far and I am so very sorry for it. This place used to be magical, funny and happy. Now it is terrible. Skulls leaving made me very upset and sad, just like what happened to JHH. They are indeed my girls ❤️️ so let me tell you something extremely positive about being in a fandom. We have so much shit going around, let me try to balance it a little bit. Maybe I can give back the hope to some of you, to still believe in the fandom. 

Last year at this time, I was fighting with depression, I hated my job, my life and I was struggling with coming out. I lost all belief in myself, and I genuinely lost track of who I am, what is life supposed to about… It was the most horrible time of my life. Then I went to Vancouver with my fandom friends. I went to Vancouver because of this little show called The X-files, and I went to Vancouver with some people who I’ve never met before and we spent two weeks together! I was nervous as fuck. I hated myself so I couldn’t imagine how these other people who never met me before, could like me?! And in that two weeks, my whole life changed. Those people accepted me for who I am, treated me with respect and we allowed each other to just be ourselves. It turned out that The X-files is by far the only thing that we have in common… IT WAS THE BEST TWO WEEKS OF MY LIFE. I’ve found best friends for life. I’ve found the most amazing bunch of humans. I’ve found a lot of alcohol, road tripping, filming visits, X-files history stories, amazing individuals and guess what else…I’ve found myself. I came back as a different person. I was free, I was someone who was not ashamed anymore of who they are.

Nearly one year later, I already quit my job, I’m moving to the UK, I’ve come out to many of my friends and some of my family members ( not out completely, yet but you know…baby steps) I’ve fixed all my shit and now I’m living a different and much better life. All started because of these beautiful people in Vancouver! 

So yeah, don’t you worry, Anon! I’ll take care of my girls always and forever because without them, I might not be here, or even if I were, it would be a so much shittier life… They are the best, and I’m lucky to have met them and still have them in my life. This fandom can be amazing, it is full of unique humans, you just have to go and find each other to create your own stories! I urge each of you to do so because you’ll never know what a silly little show can give you if you don’t try. Don’t get scared, love is always stronger than hate! 

*Ps:  You bunch of crazies, I love you so much and I f*cking miss you. Sorry for this slightly embarrassing post😂 ❤️️*